I live in a book.8:15 PM
Everyone wants their life to count.
We all have a story; full of struggles, victories, hardships, excitement, love, and laughter. Each one is different. Some are grander than others, but none of them are less than unique. And every human being wants the world to know their story. We want people to understand us, to feel for us, and to cheer us onward. We imagine ourselves as the hero or heroine of a work that will become a classic.
But the medium in which we imagine ourselves is different for everyone.
I have often heard friends describe incidents in their lives as "something out of a movie." Perhaps they saw themselves as the main character in an Austen novel, being rescued from their distress by a handsome Mr. Darcy (atop a white stallion - duh). Perhaps they had a day that was like something out of an epic action/adventure film, finished off with a sunset so glorious that they could almost hear a film score playing in the background. (Roll credits!)
I've experienced some similar moments, but it's always kind of made me laugh. How silly, to imagine my life as if it were a movie!
I've also heard people say they feel like they're living in a sitcom. Seriously, could their lives get any more cliché and ridiculous? Probably not. Every character is a character, and sometimes they feel like they're the only one who's got their head on straight, and actually gets the jokes.
I'm the oldest in a huge family, with an even huger extended family. I've seen some sitcom-ish moments. But how silly, to imagine myself as living in a giant sitcom?
I turn up my nose at such silliness. I am not so shallow. To continuously relate my life to something played out on the small or silver screen would be so ridiculous. Thank goodness I only slip up every once in a while. I am so much more sophisticated than all that.
I am such a hypocrite.
I imagine myself as living inside a book.
It's the medium that I prefer. Movies are fun, sitcoms are amusing, even radio can have its moments. But there is nothing, truly nothing like being swept off my feet by a good novel. It can turn an ordinary day into something exciting.
So there might not be a laugh track, or a beautiful sunset and romantic music, but as the moments of my life go by I see them as pages turning... covered in words, phrases, poetry, and lots of adjectives. ;) I have always dreamed of being a writer. And, more than anything, I wanted to write my own story. And I wanted people to read it, to understand, and to applaud.
Growing up and reading the endless biographies of my favorite authors, missionaries, and people who changed the world, I wondered how my own biography would read. (I think I even started writing one when I was eleven years old. Come on, tell me you didn't do the same thing!)
I wanted my story to be exciting, inspiring, and to matter to others. I wanted a remarkable life. And I hoped that someday people would see a bit more of who I am.... not on the screen in some academy award winning biopic, but between the pages of a book.
I still do. As silly as it may sound, I want to be the literary heroine of my own story. I want to live in a book.
Where do you live? :)
P.S. So sorry that I feel that books are the superior medium for life. You don't have to agree, and I'll try not to look down my nose at you. ;)